Looking Back and Forward, Starting Now!

I began this blog as therapy for all the life changes that began about five years ago. Some of the changes:

• Being on my own for the first time
• Going through a divorce
• Buying a house
• Diving into my faith
• Meeting new people
• Coming to terms with me!

I have learned much about myself through this journey. I have learned that when I am not happy, the world isn't either. I have learned that when I am not in control, the world isn't either. I have discovered that when I feel troubled, the world's troubles seem magnified.

I have also learned that because I am the "captain of my own ship", I have the choice to be happy, make decisions, and to set my own course for where my ship will go. I have been in the "cruise" mode for sometime now. Cruising is fine if you are on the Disney Wonder...but not so good if you wish to get to personal destinations because floating in despair, sadness, bad memories, and what used to be causes you to not see a place to land and take off.

The following resolutions were designed to set my ship into a forward motion and to discover me all over again:

1. Will be at my desired weight by May 1. I am tired of thinking about it, worrying about it, feeling bad about it, and stressing over it. JUST LOSE IT AND GET OVER IT.
2. I am going to read....not just read anything...but read things that will motivate, inspire, and positively affect my habits, thoughts, and aspirations.....first book, "Velvet Elvis".
3. Spend time with my friends..... they are a God send to have.
4. Pray more productively. Example: I go through the motions at meals....but am I really praying??????? I am thankful...but am I praying as if I am?
5. Simplify my abode. Less is more....more is less...and YA CAN'T TAKE IT WITH YA SO WHY HAVE IT! It goes along with the things I wish to read... surround yourself with things that motivate, inspire, positively affect my habits, thoughts, and aspirations.
6. Spend my day doing what makes me happy.....work wise, free time wise..... QUIT WASTING TIME! "As Mark Beeson pointed out....I AM RUNNING OUT OF MARBLES."
7. Get involved with Life....church, volunteering....small groups.... One can't experience life unless you live it.... being a bystander in life is not acceptable.
8. Give my all to Dawson. His heart is worth all my efforts and love.
9. Travel....even if it by myself.....GETTING MY PASSPORT
10. Live life to the fullest.....I LOVE MY LIFE...AND TOMORROW ISN'T GUARANTEED!

Here is to 2009.... ahhhhh LIVE IS GRAND!