Have you ever had a day.....

Have you ever had a day when you are so full of mixed emotions that you really feel confused at whether to be happy or sad? I had one of those today.

First of all, I worked today. I attended a store meeting in NW Indiana, then visited two of my locations. I can tell you that the meeting and store visits lent to the overwhelming happy feelings. I have such a good relationship with the retail side and my territory associates and when I get to spend time with them, I rejoice at how good I have it working with such incredible people and accomplishing such incredible things together as a team.

I then came back and attended church. The music was awesome, and I met two of my very best friends there and had the pleasure of sharing the service sitting with them. My fantastically talented daughter was the I-Mag Director (cameras) and watching her put the shots together so artistically made the experience memorable. The message was a solid message but yet as I watched it, many memories came flooding back and I felt very emotional and drained afterwards to the point of feeling that if I spoke one word, the flood gates would open and I would lose total control. I recovered by using our "appreciative inquiry" exercise which meant that I found those that did a great job and told them so. One of the vocalists came my way and i made sure I told her how well she did...always smiling and having fun while singing. I found the drummer who did a phenomenal job tonight and told him so. I told two of the couples featured in the media that they really did a great job speaking from their hearts and sharing the success of their marriages.

I left wishing that things in my life would have been different and that I wanted to feel all those things the other couples said they felt. I felt empty. I felt sad.

I also thought of the opportunities that have blessed my life recently. New friendships have given me hope and filled my life with joy and happiness. I love my friends and love what we share and the laughs and giggles and yes, even the text lesson during church....Mona Lisa would be so proud of me. (that my friends, is an inside joke ) I have a home and am learning to do things I never thought possible like buying a pump and wet/dry vac and draining and filling my own hot tub without calling for help thanks to the encouragement of one of the new people in my life. I love my little grandson more than words could ever say. The second his little hand is in mine, I am a billionaire and when he says he loves me with that raspy little voice and hugs me so close, I am the luckiest person in the entire world. When I look into my daughter's eyes and see that gleam she sometimes gets, I see my mom and all the wonderful things she was. My boys make me smile, laugh, and I am so proud of what they are accomplishing. After thinking about all of these wonderful things, I realize that I am not so empty but full of happiness over today, hope for tomorrow, and an appreciation of the power of God in my life.

Who knows, maybe years from now, they will put me in a media at church to offer words of encouragement to others about what life has meant to me.

It was just one of those days today!